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Saturday, February 19th, 2005
3:25 pm - ...don't be dumb...-Jordan
haha best night ever....thank god i needed it...i was going crazy...haha its funny everyones world is falling apart including mine...but then i have a night like last night and everything goes back to normal for a little...
quote of the night " Jordan: don't puke in the car
Me:trust me i wont, im good to go right now
Jordan: well its not even my car so nevermind if you gotta puke...GO FOR IT KIDDO!"

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Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
10:11 am - "FRICKIN FROX...."
IT'S RAINING LIKE A ONE TOUGH MOTHER!

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Monday, October 4th, 2004
10:57 am - haha FUCK IT!
so i went to visit tiff...good times were had PENIS BOY! LOVE YOU CHAS!
.....ummm there are some people who i honestly just don't get, so lets say for example you need break , just need to get away from all the drama...so what do you do, you remove yourself from the drama totally, break all ties that would maybe lead to drama....well then of these sources of drama freaks out and makes you feel bad for needed a break...you are trying to save them from your behavior (cuz granted you do act a little crazy when stressed) but they see it as a blatant attack on them and how you feel about them....so you feel bad, about yourself and how you treat others, and you contemplate how good or bad you are of a friend, mostly leaning toward bad...really really bad...only to find out that this person has a "sidelife" ya know the kind you don't know and you really dont want to know about but just happen to find out about and its fucked up not because its a shitty way of life but because they are freaking out at you for doing one thing and they are doing the fucking exact same thing, they just aren't telling you about it....welll you know what i have to say to that FUCK YOU, FUCK ALL YOUR STUPID PLOYS TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD....FUCK EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!

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Monday, September 20th, 2004
11:25 am - "booder...I LOVE GENNY..."-Kurt
odd just odd....the relationship is all fucked up now, not that it wasn't fucked up to start with but even moreso now. I don't get those two characters and i don't think i ever will. So yeah school is going alright...i guess , ignore the fact that i really don't even want to be in school but the idea of being kicked out of my house is what keeps me going everyday. I think me and matty in the next few weeks are going to do a roadtrip to see the one and only CHASTITY! it should be fun.... my throat kinda feels like its closing up, yesterday i diagnosed it being my tougue was swollen ,perhaps the piercing was infected, but i looked and there is no swelling or any nonesense like that, so i just think i am getting sick and ughhh thats not good ....but yah i think thats all

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Thursday, July 29th, 2004
6:08 pm - a wedding in the future?????
i don't even know whats going on....maybe yes maybe no maybe next month maybe maybe...

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Friday, July 9th, 2004
10:13 pm - FUCK YEAH!!!!!
JED AND CHAS ADVENTURE!

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Saturday, May 15th, 2004
11:25 pm - FUCK...
so i told myself i wouldn't let myself fall for him...haha yah right like whatever i think matters...i fell hard and fast and now grrrr ughhhh i dont even know....

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Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
9:56 am - " you are nice to look at...what nice to look at, i dont get it ???...FINE you are hot!!!!"
haha good times good times....so yah work sucks they dont comply with my class schedule, and i have finals coming up and i told one of the managers that i couldnt make it in tuesday or thursday night cuz i have class those nights and she was like well i guess you are just going to have to call in sick and take the 4 points...mind you i rto for tuesdays and thursdays off until i am done with school....its sooooo fucked up. I HATE WORKING!!!! so yah i had a great adventure with chastity last thursday....haha good times THANKS CHAS! ummm carlos, haha where do i start???? i want you! but honestly you are spent? you are such a wierdo.."wiggle wiggle STOMP & then they acted like they were broken..." you make me laugh! but anyways i gotta get class time

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Thursday, March 18th, 2004
7:18 pm - wow
don....hmmm i don't even know what to think anymore...i'm confused and beyond happy at the same time...wierd feeling.

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Sunday, March 7th, 2004
10:35 pm - ughhh
sick again...i swear i am dying

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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
12:21 am
i dont think i have ever felt so sad and alone. Its like everyone is here and watching, but they aren't seeing the signs. Its like they put on a good face, and pretend like they care, but i am not stupid, i see their thoughts and feelings aren't there....makes me sad to know that no one cares

current mood: sad

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Saturday, February 21st, 2004
5:51 pm - My 1st time...
and to be honest, it wasn't everything i expected it to be, people hype it up and make it seem that much more interesting and exciting. So yah,maybe if i do it again, i will be more impressed...who knows!

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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
10:22 am - " i came in,told you to get up and you said okay...yah but i dont remember saying okay!"
wow so umm friday was grahams thing, i went with chas, we about died on the car ride out there, gam those green balloons. But yah after than we came home chas left and then my mom came home. We were sitting around doing nothing, which is typical for my house, so i called andi and told her i was coming up...haha I AM BORED! umm yah so we pretty much just hung out around their house, which is much better than just sitting alone at my house. haha alex was being an ass though....
Me: fuck valentines!
Alex:you are being to sensitive about it all
Me: OR maybe FUCK YOU ALEX!
Alex: *unzips his pants and pretends to pull out his tally* OKAY HOP ON!
Me: ewww OH MY GOD put that away
Alex: call me god after you sleep with me
Andi: ALEX GENNY SAID PUT IT AWAY!!!! SHE DOESN'T WANT YOU!
hahahahaha good times at their house...haha so yah this weekend was LOTS of fun...haha but yah its off to class for me...woop woop english

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Sunday, February 8th, 2004
2:20 pm - wow...
i really dont think i have ever felt this alone in my life...its scary...like i go through the routine of things, play nice with others and ya know try to be normal...but then at the end of the day i honestly dont know what was said to me or what i said back. Its like i am living my life but its like i have no say in what goes on....ughh its such a trippy unsetteling feeling.i miss my friends, or people who i thought were friends...i dont even know anymore.

current mood: sad

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Thursday, February 5th, 2004
10:37 am - LAST NIGHT...
RIP GRAHAM....

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Sunday, February 1st, 2004
9:14 pm - wow
i had a great weekend at andis...hanhing out with her and alex...haha yah alex! but yah only to come home to fights with my mom and my sister and realize i was being fucked over by someone i trusted....i swear you think i would have learned by now...especially since this has happened before with this exact same person...yah no i havent...stupid stupid me!

current mood: pissed off

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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
12:08 am - grrrr
everything has changed...i dont like it either...and the fucked up part is that i can't do anything to make it go back to the way it was...i dont want to keep living a lie i dont want to keep pretending to be happy when i am really miserable...this fucking sucks!

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Saturday, January 10th, 2004
1:26 pm - "how old are you??? 18...WOW i am way to old , im 23!"
Andi has been down for the last couple of days, it was nice to get away from the school drama and the parent drama and the billy drama...yay NO DRAMA! so yah oh my god i have lived in escondido as long as i can remember and never have i found a hot guy, so yah in the 2 days she was here andi managed to find the ONE hotboy and get his number and spend LOTS of time on the phone...WTF mate? just my luck ya know?? woop woop so yah ummm grades came out....FUCK is the only word to describe it...lol ummm yah so we are going to be having a "pow-wow" with the parents to discuss what i am going to do...i am scared for my life. Yah im ready to go back though, its boring being a home nothing to do ALL the time, it kinda sucks ass. so yah but i dont even know if me going back is going to be okay...lol yay me.so umm yahhhh i just want everything to go back to normal, me back at school having good times, billy being normal with me, my parents not trusting me, but hey i can deal with that one...but i know that everything is not the same now and it sucks.oh well shit happens....so yah i guess that is all...WOOP WOOP

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Monday, January 5th, 2004
1:32 am - honar...
things are getting wierd...VERY wierd... i don't know what to think anymore, im so confused...i need help...i need to get out, i feel like i am being sufocated by the questions and the lies. Everything is just a blurr, i feel like this isn't even my life, i feel like you are living my life for me, i am the outsider..and i don't care for this feeling of regret and pain.

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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
10:59 pm - I'm sorry....
you know who you are...i am sorry!

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